To B or Not to B P…

That’s the big question….

pregnancyI’ve been toying with the idea of blogging when I become pregnant. I feel like there’s so much that isn’t talked about regarding pregnancy. I want my kids to know what I went through so that they have an idea of what they (or their spouse) will go through when their time comes.

I was going to begin blogging when my husband and I started trying to conceive. But then I figured that would be pretty boring – especially if nothing happened for months on end. So I figured I’d wait until I found out for sure I was pregnant.

Well, I’m pregnant.

I had a few early signs of pregnancy so I bought a 3-pack of pregnancy tests that will let me test six days before my missed period. I took the first one today and OMG there were two lines! I wasn’t so sure at first. I could definitely see the control line show up. The second one was faint – but it was there.

My first thought? OMG I can’t believe I might be getting what I want for Christmas!!

I stood in the bathroom for about five minutes not knowing what to do. I wanted to cry, scream, laugh, pray. I didn’t know if I should wake my husband up or not. I decided to get back to bed and think about it where it was warm. Then my second thought hit me:

I have to eat breakfast. This baby needs food.

I’ve been sick for the past three days from a really nasty virus. I’ve been nauseous, vomiting, sore throat, fever, chills… Horrible! I went to the doctor yesterday and was told I was really dehydrated. So I haven’t been eating or drinking fluids like usual. Not so good if I have a human growing inside me.

So I got out of bed and was about to put my waffles into the toaster when my husband came out of the bedroom.

I blurted out that I took a pregnancy test and there were two lines. What did that mean to him? Nothing. Until I told him that means I could be pregnant, but it could still be too early for it to be real. So what did he do?

He walked away and went to the bathroom to pee.

Not really the reaction I was hoping for nor dreaming of when I’ve pictured telling my husband the big news. But I guess I don’t blame him since I was feeling a little doubtful myself.

He finally came back and hugged and kissed me while I stared at the pregnancy test in disbelief.

We’re not going to be telling anyone the big news just yet. Since I took the test 5-6 days before my period is supposed to start and the second line was so light, the last thing I want to do is tell the world and then have to explain that I was wrong. I’ve read that any line – not matter how faint – means you’re pregnant. But I have a habit of doubting myself. Plus I’ve been sick and I don’t know if being so dehydrated could have messed with things either. I don’t think I’ll believe it until a doctor tells me it’s true. But I figured now would be a decent time to start blogging. I don’t think pregnancy is just about conception to birth. It’s the whole journey from trying to conceive to the baby’s birthday. If for some reason it takes longer for me to conceive, then that’s something my kids would need to know about too.