miscarriage, Pregnancy

I Am 1 in 4: 2013 (Two Years After My Miscarriage)

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Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness/Remembrance Day.

2 years after my miscarriage- Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day via muddybootsanddiamonds.com #miscarriage #pregnancy

I am writing this post in the waiting room of my OB/midwife office. It feels weird having an appointment today.

Before I got here, I looked at G and was reminded that if I hadn’t had my loss, I’d be chasing a 2-year-old girl around the house, not an 18-month-old boy whom I love beyond words.

So I guess this day leaves me with a bitter-sweet feeling. I’m still not over the loss of our girl in 2011. It was an early loss, but one nonetheless. It hit me hard, and while I find myself being less and less sad about it, I can tell I will be one who won’t ever “get over it” the way some people think I should. The way some women seem to have done.

And I know that is okay.

Friends and family may forget. Or pretend to forget, because HEY! I have a kid now and another on the way!

But I won’t forget. Despite moving on to build my family, I can’t seem to forget: I am 1 in 4.

I am 1 in 4: Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day via muddybootsanddiamonds.com

9 thoughts on “I Am 1 in 4: 2013 (Two Years After My Miscarriage)

  1. Big hugs your way. Thinking of you and lighting a candle for your sweet baby and all of those others. So glad you have your sweet boy with you now but I know that can’t take away all the pain… ever.

  2. I didn’t light a candle last night for my loss (it’s not my way), but I was thinking of everyone I know (virtually too) and was mentally sending my thoughts and support.

  3. Even a baby-in-arms doesn’t erase the pain of a lost little one. Hugs to you.

    (And hi from ICLW – I’m not on the list this month, but I’m doing my best to comment anyway!)

  4. I think pretend to forget sums it up best. Friends and family can never forget but may worry that discussing would hurt you more. That is how I feel in the situation

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